to do 25days.

FAIL not enough time.. ugh.

what in the chocolate tornados?!

ok so it's 437 in the am way. came back from la less than 2 hours ago. hope u berkeley&irvine&fullerton&la kids enjoyed, because it sucked being DD! >:O


Your Firsts

1. Who was your FIRST prom date?
Paul&also a picture date. senior year was a pretty scandalous year.

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love?
fortunately, yes:)

3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
40, smirnoff, 151. not sure but i remember i almost yaked.

4. What was your FIRST job?
at a cookie place. i got FIRED ): for having a complicated schedule. somethings never change.

5. What was your FIRST car?
my kia<3 don't hate asswipes.

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today?
bae

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?
paul. paul. paul. paul.

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher?
don't know. i don't remember 1st grade.

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?
uhmmm korea? yes probably.

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?
jenny, at times not as frequently.

11. Where was your FIRST sleep over?
holllllyyy mollyyy uhm ohhh this girl in oregon named laura(:

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today?
Bae, "lowell is closed. off pennsylvannia? what?"

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time?
my cousin, flower girllllll. fruity.

14. What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?
"OH SHIT, wait wtf, fuck it its only 10"

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?
some musical

16. What was the FIRST record/tape/CD you bought?
Britney Spears!

17. FIRST hospitalization?
crack in the head from korea

18. FIRST foreign country you've been to?
Korea

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing?
i don't remember

20. When was your FIRST detention?
middle school

21. What did you do with your FIRST paycheck?
spent all of it in less than an hour, eating. ugh, i still do this with my paycheck which is why my fccn bank statements say -cash.

i don't know why i did this. i get random spurts of ridiculous boredom that i guess i just do everything randomly and like wtf. today is just a weird day. i don't know if i'm being handed lemons or what, but i ain't making no lemonade. the lemon juice is just like squirting into my eyes or something. my brain is on the fritz. i didn't even drink , but yet i feel fucking queasy. i need another job and a better internship. i hate working. i want to go to school. i can't remember people's names well and today i got caught when i called some guy "david" when his name was something else. i still don't know or remember his name. i meet people, but i can almost never remember their name unless there's something fucked up about them. like a weird nasty mole growing outta their neck that looks like it's going to transport its babies to me. i don't know. it's weird, but i have the worst time remembering names. and another guy thought i was someone else, i didn't like it. i never met him before. driving is a beeeeyotch. i don't like driving too much. i like other people driving me. i like being baby-d. i miss my boyfriend like no tomorrow): good morning&night*

evolution

when is meanness now part of evolution?
it seems like as i've been through more days, more years, people just get plain mean.
there are those occasional true down to truth sweet hearts, but it seems rare.
or maybe i just meet mean people.
either way, being mean is no fun.
and definitely not nice.

i miss my bursts of energy.
i guess i'm getting old and mundane.
so ugly.